Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Focus

Some of you may notice the removal of my posts concerning my childhood. The intent of this exercise was to lay it out and look at it as objectively as I could. In the past I have felt a great deal of shame and embarrassment associated with the actions of my parents. This is of course ridiculous. As an adult I have endeavored not to have ownership for the mistakes of others... the intent of these posts was was not to blast my parents- I truly felt they themselves were victims...who created other victims. My ultimate goal in my life is to break the chain...I try very hard to "honor my parents", as the commandment mandates.

I also have become aware of the necessity of focus...and maintain a lifelong attempt to give thanks for all things. I give thanks for my parents...they have made me the man I am today. I give thanks for my illness...the leukemia has given me greater insights of what is important (at least in my life).

I have become aware that this exercise has made some uncomfortable...so poof they are gone...digital magic.

Stay tuned for some positive news...

God Bless,

2 comments:

  1. You were never dishonoring as far as my detached observation post was concerned. However, I understand the public baring of one's life always involves the lives of others who may not approve. I loved your stories of your parents and thought they were portrayed as kindly as could be from the perspective of one of the victims. And besides--it was probably most helpful to you which is not to be dismissed.

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  2. I miss your posts, Randy, and I too loved your stories of your parents. Hope you're posting again very soon! Happy New Year to you!

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